I have a terrible time being consistent, obviously. I am working on it and trying to make a mantra for myself that goes something like, “It’s not perfect, but it’s done” or “I am doing the best I can.” I was just explaining to my daughter yesterday that life is inescapably human for us humans. You have to do things anyway even when you feel apprehensive, lonely, bored, frustrated, mad, etc. You just have to keep on going because there is no finish line where you are going to be in a perfect fairy land of “I feel perfect today” every day for the rest of your life after you get through this rough patch, right? Or is that just my life? Anyway, I am going to keep on going because that’s all I can do. Put one foot in front of the other and find the good spots in the day. I am noticing my moves towards becoming a better version of me everyday. “I’m good enough, I’m smart enough, and doggone it, people like me”. Is that how it went?

This morning I snuck back into my bedroom to get a set of my cards and to my delight the one that my hand fell upon was “The Wild Unknown Animal Spirit” deck by Kim Krans. I love this one because I love working with animals. Animals show up in my dreams and seem get my attention where ever I go. I am always hearing crows cawing, I notice bunnies in people’s yards, I had a dog who I feel was my soulmate that I still connect with in dreams. I dream about bears, snakes, foxes. I have dabbled a little in shamanistic techniques. So…with no further ado, let’s see what the card draw is and whether it connects with what was on my heart and mind this morning.

I drew hyena this morning…which is interesting because while on a recent trip to the Chicago field museum a display of the hyenas caught my eye. Let’s see what the card has to say. I swear you all, you’ll get tired of me saying this…this card pull directly relates to what I was exploring in the first paragraph. This deck is split up into elements and the hyena is a fire element in this deck. According to the description in the book about the element which is represented by a point up triangle. Apparently fire leads us toward change and “Deadlines and demands are around every turn, but it’s all in the name of growth.” “Fire is the only thing that transforms darkness into light”. Now, onto the meaning of the card.

No joke (this is a pun you are about to find out), this card talks about taking your goals seriously and fulfilling your unrealized dreams instead of covering them up with jokes and sarcasm. Uh, doesn’t the universe know that this is how I cope sometimes? Gotta laugh about it or you will cry? I was just thinking about how it’s so frustrating to have ADHD, but the TikTok videos about how other people who have it cope are pretty funny sometimes. It’s frustrating to try to reach your goals when you are always distracted by something shiny…thus the mantras I referred to in the fist paragraph.

Going on..”What would happen if you took your goals seriously?” Oh you mean and kept after them day after day semi-consistently? I guess that’s a whole other blog for another day to talk about my fears of success. For now, I definitely am going to keep going and being serious with a tinge of humor to cope with the struggle that is real about trying to be a human in this world. Thank you hyena card, universe and higher self for the reminder.